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The Online Magazine FOR and ABOUT Southside Virginia |
1/30/2023 |
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I Still Choose YouOn Life, Love and Commitment
By Gertrude M. Slabach
Ah, February�the season for celebration of love! Ah yes, I remember how it was, back
when we were young and so in love. Life happens, and time changes us.
Marriage can certainly bring out the best in folks; it can also bring out the worst. That�s why we've had to grow up and learn to give in. We�ve learned how selfish and immature we were, when we said �I do.� Yet we meant it when we said �for better, for worse. . .� I still choose you for better, for worse. In twenty-six-plus years of marriage, we�ve had financial reversals and deadlines on unpaid bills. I remember the day you prayed that God would grant you favor with your customers because we were out of money but loaded with bills. Then a customer decided to give more than your required down payment for the job. It was just what we needed. Years later, when you shattered your heels and were unable to work, we weren�t sure how we�d make it. But God and His people came through. Over the years, we�ve had to scrimp and save, cancel magazine subscriptions, and eat a lot of casseroles. Unplanned things still happen that cause us to have to tighten our belts. Compared to some folks, we�re rich. Compared to others, we�re poor. It doesn�t matter. We�re in this together. That�s why we said �For richer, for poorer.� I still choose you for richer, for poorer. We�ve also experienced illnesses, uncertainties waiting for test results,
Many folks think everybody deserves to be happy, and if a marriage brings unhappiness, those involved have a right to renege on the commitment to those vows. We don�t agree with those sentiments; the way we see it, there is only one exit door for marriage. That door is death, not divorce. That�s why we said ��til death do us part.� I still choose you �til death do us part. You�ve said it over and over again: marriage is more about commitment than love; marriage takes work and sometimes, when it�s hard, we find out what it is we are made of. You�re so right. A great description of love is found in I Corinthians 13, where love is described not in feeling, but in doing. I think that�s because when we act like we should, the feelings will catch up. I think that because I know it; and I know it because I�ve experienced it�with you! Love is slow to lose patience; it looks for a way of being constructive
[Philips Translation verse 4].
I remember one of the days I learned to put patience into practice�when I chose to look for a way of being constructive. I don�t remember what you had done, but I was hurt and angry. Humanly speaking, I probably had every right to have those feelings. Those emotions sparked a desire to get even, make you pay, or at least withhold my warmth and admiration. As the morning wore on, I knew I had to do something with those emotions. I remembered those words:��love looks for a way of being constructive.� Are you kidding? I thought. Why would I want to do that?! Yet�our marriage was not just about me and my pain. It was about us and about commitment. This, I thought, is not better; it�s worse! Looking for a way of being constructive isn�t hard when life is good. I figured those words were written especially for the worse times. So I looked for �and found a way�that day. All I planned to do was complete a task. Yet doing that task changed my heart. Remember the spiral notebooks we use for your business communications?
At first, my reaction to those words was a �humph� because I was still smarting.
Yet as I continued paging through the notebook,
By the time I was done with the phone book, the anger in my heart was gone. In its place was a fire, burning with admiration and passion. Oh yes, I still had reason to be angry; but the balance of the scale was in your favor. Rather than focusing on your faults, I found release in savoring your strengths. I found that being slow to lose patience, looking for a way of being constructive, and then doing it is one powerful way to show commitment! When you came home that evening, you found, instead of a wife who refused to cuddle, a wife who wanted to renew her commitment by being your lover. It's true that sometimes I forget why I married you, and you wonder why you married me. In those times, there is not an over-abundance of warm, fuzzy feelings on either side. In those times we don�t even like each other very much. I think we�re pretty normal, and if more couples admitted that marriage is work, there would be more hope for others who are struggling. I know that, except for the grace of God, our marriage might just be another empty existence. Even though we�ve been at it for quite some time, marriage is still work, and
sometimes it�s messy.
When we walked that aisle, it made all the difference that, in choosing each other, we meant what we were saying: �for better or for worse, for richer or for poorer, in sickness or in health, �til death do us part.� I wouldn't have wanted to walk that aisle with any other view of commitment. Each day, every day, all day long, we keep saying, �I do.� If it were my turn to choose again, I�d still choose you. I would still say, �I do.�
I�ve learned . . . ...that marriage is not for the faint-hearted. ...that commitment is non-negotiable. ...to hang onto commitment when I feel unimportant and unloved. ...that confession and forgiveness are an important part of commitment. ...that marriage shows me how selfish I really am. ...to look for the best and believe the best even when I don�t feel like it. ...that love is a choice: I can choose to be patient and look for a way to be constructive instead of harboring hurts. ...that marriages truly are made in Heaven because the idea (and it�s a great one!) belongs to God.
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Born and raised in western Maryland, Gertrude Slabach has claimed Southside Virginia as home for over twenty four years. She is an RN and works part-time at Fuller Roberts Clinic in South Boston, Virginia. Gertrude and her husband Dave have six children; four sons and two daughters. She is the author of three books: Aren�t We Having Fun Dying?!, Southside Glimmers, and Always Mama�s Girl. The books can be purchased at Windmill Farm Bake Shop, the South Boston-Halifax County Museum, or by contacting her at:
Read more about Gertrude Slabach's Books in print here >>> __________
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